Saturday, February 24, 2018

I Shall return to the Source of My Existence~

"I shall return to the source of my existence"

In the solitude and silence there must have been a thunderous sound of power through this eternal God.  A sound that would birth, breathe and brood over all the non-existent, yet unformed seeds of creative power.  Suddenly the voice of the Word came like the sound of a mighty rushing river. Bursting with life, it came overflowing its banks with incredible joy, humming with the rhythm of the song of the redeemed and teaming with life.  Great cataclysmic chasms, ruptured the waters, as mountain lifted themselves and filled the galaxies, and then, as an after-thought fractured the mountain peaks to expose giant gorges filled with river beds, water ways, fields and streams and endless lakes.  

Seven times the voice spoke and seven times the creative power of God brought forth something out of nothing.  All that was, is, or ever shall be was created.  The eternal voice, with no beginning and no end, spoke and the echo of the voice reached out into the limitless cosmos, where time, nor space would control His infinite power.  

The abundance came, not withholding, not restricting, but resounding with the laughter of Love unleashed into the universe.  This mind of jewels and gems of power wrought forth a garden sown with seeds, seeds still yet harbored in the distant hallways of man consciousness, a place where communion brought creativity, where all is in order, where all is perfection and where rest was found for every living thing. In this garden the apple of God’s eye was formed, not created but formed by the hands of the One who treasured them in his heart, His crown of all that was fashioned for His pleasure.  This creation was His companion. 

But man failed and lost this place in glory.  He fell into the abyss of the ever-pervading darkness. There he struggles and vanquishes until God’s love ignites the long-forgotten memory and man says,

“I shall return to the source of my existence.

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Memory Healing...

One has to own their own sin to receive salvation—and likewise one must own their own salvation to know surrender to His Lordship.
Recently I had occasion to revisit a place I had been some years ago.  It was a time and place that God had chosen to meet a certain priest, a man who gently helped me as I journeyed through a ‘crossing over’ a deep ‘letting go’ season of life.   Now many years later I find I am in this place once again and note that there is still the washing away of remnants of those hours—like the scar tissue that remains from past surgery God’s healing reveals even the scars have been removed and I am at peace.

As I ‘think on these things’ the depth of ‘letting go’ is far deeper than I can fathom.  I’m reminded of the work of the Holy Spirit in my life during other seasons and how the Lord used them to bring out so much grief of past loss, for one cannot release without first revealing what lay hidden.  In a very real way I am still releasing my homeland and all that has meant to my heart.  Closing takes a long time, it’s not a simple act of walking away but continually without fear, or even with fear, releasing your heart.  The only safe place is into the hands of the Father.  Each and every moment that we have a ‘flash back’ or reminder, we sense and recognize that life without the things we held so dear is safe and secure,  that they are molded and melted into who we are and therefore can never be lost.  Only the Holy Spirit can do this work as we yield to His sanctifying work within us.  Our joy then comes from being able to allow our memories freedom in making us uniquely designed and living our lives openly in surrender to Him as radiant stars in the universe.

HANDS…how beautiful the touch of hands so dear, sweet flowing motion to wipe away a tear.  To sooth a fevered brow or calm a pounding heart, the last soft touch of love before we part.  Moving to the rhythm of pain and blinding sadness, inside so deep the hurt and fear is soothed away by hands so dear.  Hands that reach for loved ones lost, that speak of all that love has cost. Hands that hold the healing power, hands so gentle full of love.  The Mighty hands of God above.  

“And when Jesus had cried out with a loud voice, He said, “Father, Into Your hands I commit My spirit”  - Luke 23:46 -



Wednesday, June 25, 2014

"Don't you see that children are God's best gift? the fruit of the womb his generous legacy?"

Let the little children… come unto me.

Every problem an individual or nation faces is, at the root, a spiritual problem.   Only those seeing life through the lens of The Holy Spirit will understand that the issue is not politics, the economy or poverty.  The issue is spiritual.   Developing the horizons of our communities to influence and affect this nation begins in the smallest of them.  It is here in the grass roots that dreams, visions, and hopes of “we the people” move us forward.   A pioneer spirit, once stirring deeply in our hearts but now crushed into servitude, is not the destiny of a people chosen by God! 

History teaches that the compass of man’s life is moral and, once broken on a large scale, nations fall and crumble.  Yet there is always a remnant, a group that has not, nor ever will yield to the battering ram of temptation, the self destruction of consuming upon its own lusts the very blessing and freedom that created this nation.  These are those with the spirit of the pioneers, men and women who were willing to risk all for a new land, pioneers who kept moving toward the sunrise, heading for the horizon.  They were seeking new places, new cultures, and new beginnings.  As they conquered each new frontier and touched the horizon, the desire to reach into the unknown infused them with courage.  Outer space or cyber space -- nothing can stop the pioneer spirit that this nation was founded upon.   Pioneers are prepared to keep going, to journey on, to stay on the path. Vision empowers perseverance in a world that taunts and tests with persecution.  All along the way, pioneers have insight given to them.  Surely the Sovereign Lord does nothing without revealing his plan to his servants the prophets” (Amos 3:7).

Were these pioneers the prophets of their day, men and women who listened to the moral compass within and followed the course predestined while they were yet in their mother’s womb?  Strangers in a foreign land and much like the Israelites of old, they moved into this land of promise, drove their stakes into the land and persevered so that posterity could prosper.  Where are these pioneers, these visionaries of old, now?

They are those who would move mountains for the common good of man; they would build great places of healing, education, and scientific exploration.  Something happened; something is stealing away the rights and privileges; something has upset the balance and the compass spins in all directions.  How do we come back?  How do we refocus?  Only God can draw, like a magnet, people back to Himself; only He can reset the compass and point the hearts of people to due north.   Let our hearts cry for new eyes to see and ears to hear.   We must watch and wait and allow the Holy Spirit to cleanse and readjust our sight to higher realms and deeper understanding.

This nation that is sin sick from the murder of millions of unborn babies is now faced with an awesome opportunity of opening its borders to thousands of children from other lands.  They too flea from the tyranny and bondage of wicked men and women.   What mercy and grace would risk giving such responsibility to those who have failed so miserably.  We can look again with the eyes of the creator God and see the manner of His love.

 Only God knows the deep things and only He can extract the precious out of the vile.   Christian, let your voice envelope all other voices until there is a sound from heaven that sends a tsunami of wisdom and compassion across this land.  

Thursday, May 15, 2014

A Life Lesson--the Lesson of Life...

The lesson of life – to release or let go of all things, people, situations, dreams, desires.  Yesterday is gone; tomorrow may never be – to live in the beauty and peace of a moment.    To erase from our minds the bondage of should, aught, must, or what if’s.  Learning the measure of living in this place of victory is the measure by which we are able to receive the love of God!

The very moment Christ---gave up the Spirit—God began to move and in the interim of death and life was the power of release, the power of let go, the power of the resurrection!   Nothing could hold life down or cripple the life that would follow Christ! 

Years ago I had a decision to make—for me it was a big decision, as I fasted and prayed I spent time away from daily activities and I sat in the midst of God's creation watching as squirrels chased each other in the tree tops.   Suddenly the one in front found itself on the farthest limb with no tree close by, only a sapling growing between the distant trees.  The squirrel hesitated only a second before she leapt with grace that caught my breath but even greater was the wonder when she touched down on the small frail sapling and landed with such grace and balance the limb simply bowed gently for its visitor.  My thoughts returned to the moment of decision and I pondered.  “How can that squirrel take such a leap of faith and land so precisely, when I stumble and struggle so much?"  I heard  the Spirit whisper,   “She does not question but responds instinctively to who I have created her to be—when you respond to who I have made you to be, you too will take giant leaps of faith". 

David was very wise in knowing times and seasons….it is written “Then Saul went on one side of the mountain, and David and his men on the other side of the mountain.  So David made haste to get away from Saul, for Saul and his men were encircling David and his men to take them….he came to the sheepfolds by the road, where there was a cave; and Saul went in to attend to his needs."   Then David’s men reminded David of the Lord’s words, ”Behold, I will deliver your enemy into your hand, that you may do to him as it seems good to you, And David arouse and secretly cut off a corner of Saul’s robe’…David  was sorry he had cut off the corner of Saul’s robe and told his men.  “The Lord forbid that I should do this thing to my master, the Lord’s anointed, to stretch out my hand against him, seeing he is the anointed of the Lord” 

So the life lesson of ‘letting go’ requires a deep sense of the value of every person, the right attitude is the most powerful response in this life lesson. 

Even the ebb and flow of the ocean speaks of things first touching then releasing—it is a reflection of eternal life to be able to hold on yet let go.  Only as one has unquestioning assurance and confidence in which God has made them to be can the letting go principle knows full power. 

To release the seasons of life is the secret to the much more of spiritual growth and development.  It is this release that impacts every moment of the future.   The momentum of life is kept at a steady pace, no weariness, no complaining, but joy as every moment replaces the moment just released.  James Matthew Barrie said, “You have been warned against letting the golden hours slip by. Yes, but some of them are golden only because we let them slip by.”  It happens in…a moment.

I remember the story of the old Pentecostals who were heard at the altar saying… “hang on sister, hang on to the horns of the altar and don’t let go until God gives the answer”, then another voice would call out saying…”let go sister, let go and let God!”  Havelock Ellis said, “All the art of living lies in a fine mingling of letting go and holding on.”

Letting go is a subject many books have been written about and most concern relationships. “Sometimes" said Gloria Naylor, “... being a friend means mastering the art of timing. There is a time for silence. A time to let go and allow people to hurl themselves into their own destiny." Letting go means you never leave someone behind, you take a part of them with you and leave a part of yourself behind.

There is the trauma of leaving jobs, changing locations, leaving home, and leaving school, leaving communities or churches.  Life is full of the ‘let go lesson’.   As time goes by and age grips the physical even the activities of yesterday must be replaced by less strenuous activities of today.  No longer can you dig and rake the gardens, travel the world, run the marathon or climb the highest mountain.

Technology has spawned new ways of communication, faster; right now responses have pushed the human physic beyond the limits of the previous generations of mind mapping abilities.  All this requires we let go and let tomorrow set the boundaries of limitless thinking.  “We must be willing”, said Joseph Campbell, “to let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the life that is waiting for us.” 

Letting go of your past and memories are also extremely hard. Even though old memories can be tormenting, yet you might hold on to the past and refuse to move forward but refusing to let go of the painful past only serves as a roadblock to the future.

Seasons teach us that without the power of their persuasion we would not be prepared for changing climates.   Leaves drop sadly to the ground to give way, to yield to the next season and bulbs and roots must rest before the Spring can come again.   From  babies loss of first tooth, potty training and the stumbling steps taken  into daddies opened arms, letting go is an art and a crucial ‘life lesson’

The deepest most painful art of living is experienced in the letting go of self—the depth of self abandonment is immortally viewed on the Cross and can only be known as you walk in trust and obedience to God.  When God ‘let go’ of Himself it was the gateway, the heavenly portal, the door to life everlasting, a place of freedom that words alone cannot express.  Letting go of the old self and the process of allowing the new to emerge can be one of the scariest experiences in life. But by leaving behind your old self and taking a leap of faith into the unknown, it might just reveal what you are truly capable of becoming.

This is the secret and the reason ‘letting go’ becomes a life lesson, it is learned through the moments of life.   Oprah Winfrey caught a glimpse of this when she was able to say: “Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure.”

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

First Love

First love…

As a child I cannot remember my parents or siblings or friends or myself using the word ‘love’—and as I reminisce I realize love was something that was experienced through action rather than heard through words.  

Remembering those days I am unable to differentiate my feelings of love for an individual.  Love was a family thing—it was who we were and how we lived and worked together and yes sometimes fought and became angry with each other.  To love was to know each one had a place in the family, each had a responsibility to ‘set the table before the meal’ or ‘wash the dishes after the meal’, to use the sweeper under and around the table.  Each had a task which meant we were part of the family.  It was our world, we rarely used the word ‘love’ but somehow we knew it was not a word but something exemplified in how we lived together.  We just knew we were loved and cared for, and we loved and cared in return by our respect and obedience. 

 Words like ‘love’ were saved for special moments in grown up lives, a word that if  defined would mean, hard work, joining together in the tasks of everyday living with a special person, a person chosen to duplicate this same world of love.  At times this love meant doing the things we would rather not do but understood somewhere deep within that if we didn’t do our part then someone would go without, including ourselves—and of course there would be consequences for leaving the thing undone.     

 Love was the reason why dad worked hard and would work at any job in order to put food on the table for six children.  Love recognized that there was a place around the table for each of us.  Love for me began with the security that home gave when bombs were falling and we were all in it together—taking care that when we huddled together in the darkness of the air-raid shelter no one was missing.  

Love was also evidenced through the friendships I made, not many but enough and when the appointed time came with a yearning in my heart for something more—I heard of God’s love and through my own great need, love was sown into my heart.  Through love friendship with Jesus and deep passion for the Church laid a foundation in my soul.  

It was out of this backdrop that love came to me as a very young woman and  made way for commitment to one man—a passion that focused on one relationship that would pay the cost of leaving home, family, country and all I knew of life.   Love so deep that through 56 years it has stood the test of time, many trials, many struggles and steep learning curves that proved love endures and transforms the soul.     To love another is to know them and in knowing them love discovers the awesome value of a single soul.  

As I write these words I realize that I have sometimes consciously but mostly unconsciously lived life establishing the same womb of protection for our immediate family.  I have learned that the world we live in has changed drastically.  I have grown to realize that people, especially our own offspring need to hear the words ‘I love you’. 

I have learned that love is the foundation and motivation for my actions, it is why I do what I do—love is not just words or feelings but passion that acts on behalf of others.  Love is an attitude that says…I have a destiny, I am a part of the whole…I have a task to do…for the Glory of God and the good of all mankind.

“What manner of love is this that we should be called the children of God”

[1 John 3:1]

Saturday, August 3, 2013

Continuing in Prayer

Continuing in Prayer…

Some of my most glorious memories are of those special times when the Holy Spirit has opened the way for me to share Jesus with family members.  After a number of years evangelizing in my homeland my mother’s struggle with the wall against ‘Pentecost’ finally broke down.  Sitting in the back pew of the Church of England, ‘checking out what on earth her daughter was doing preaching the Gospel,' The Holy Spirit heard my prayers, saw her hunger and mightily saved her soul.  She wept and shook for three days—some time later she remarried [my dad had gone to be with the Lord some years prior], and on another ministry journey we stopped by to visit.  I shared Jesus and led my step-dad to the Lord. They both spent the rest of their days serving in the local church and my mother, still weeping, would attend our  U.K. Truelight Ministry prayer meetings. 
The enemy always wages war against the families—he always finds the weak spots, the young, the old and the ones busy at providing for their families!   We have a mandate to keep our families covered—God desires for us to be LIGHT that is set on a hill.  Over the years I have had the privilege of leading many others in my family to the saving knowledge of Jesus Christ.  
The Trinity has often been described by using the light bulb—well if the seat of connection is God the Father, the filament is the power of the Holy Spirit and Jesus is the LIGHT then families become the housing of the bulb itself and must connect to God the Father for the power to flow!
So many of the requests we receive are for agreement in prayer for loved ones.  Through our prayer ministry we hear wonderful testimonies of how prayer has radically changed many households. 
At DHM God has given the increase and in the new location we have an inner room that has been dedicated as the ‘inner prayer room’.    Our prayer ministry team pray for the requests that come to us either personally, by e-mail or telephone—led by the Holy Spirit we join the intercessory ministry of Jesus Christ, who ever lives to make intercession for us all.
It would be a privilege to agree with you to intercede for your families—this is the way of love, continuing in prayer one for another.
If you have a need please let us know either by calling: 692 5971 or e-mail
May God divinely intervene in every household as it is written—“…believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved –you and your household.” you shall receive household salvation.  Salvation means; total restoration through redemption, deliverance, healing and the full inheritance, everything God has purposed for His family—the full blessing of God.   –Diane

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

The River....

                                                              The River
 “The Lord has made everything to accommodate itself and contribute to its own end and His own purpose—even the wicked are fitted for their role for the day of calamity and evil.Proverbs 16:4 AMP

The movement of God during the closing of this season of ministry, which includes the journey to England, Austria and the Dominican Republic, was as a mighty and deep river.   This verse brings understanding about the river of God and helps us to understand the following truths:
A deep and wide river moves swiftly, its speed dependent upon its original spring.  “Then He showed me the river whose waters give life, sparkling like crystal, flowing out from the throne of God and of the Lamb.”  Revelation 22:2

Whenever there is resistance within the river the resistance does not create the power to increase its depths and its borders.  It is the source from which it flows that brings power and healing to the nations and all that it touches. “Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, as clear as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb down the middle of the great street of the city.  On each side of the river stood the tree of life, bearing twelve crops of fruit, yielding its fruit every month.  And the leaves of the tree are for the healing of the nations.”  Revelation 22:1-2
Hindrance or pressure does not make something increase but exposes what is already there and by that virtue increases itself.  [I.e. the gymnast is not developed by what they do but by the strength and determination within themselves.]  Not what they do but who they are!

a.       The river  allows itself to increase and re-shape as it flows.

b.      Whatever is received has enough power to fulfill its potential, it cannot be stopped by any external force or hindrance.

c.       The deeper the river the less observable is its movement and power.  There is a ‘stillness’ to depth. 

d.      The ratio of width and depth is reflected in balance and reflects harmony – when a hindrance occurs the water begins to churn in the depths making it even deeper.  The depths then increasing restores balance and harmony.
A just balance and scales are the Lord’s; all the weights of the bag are His work [established on His eternal principles” Proverbs 16:11

e.      The churning of the river causes the hindrance to either succumb by submission  or be washed away by the power of the river: 
“Be still and rest in the Lord; wait for Him and patiently lean yourself on Him: fret not yourself because of him who prospers in his way, because of the man who brings wicked devices to pass.”   [Psalm 37:7]

Diane - July 2013